saturday

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like everything existing on earth, we know nothing is eternally attractive if it won't be changed better. class bored! i love those inspirations generated from lhp much as i hate the feelings of ambition in everyone. it's digusting.

friends bored too. those days watched me without talking with K or any guys. feeling the very irrelevant of myself trying to please every friends. they no longer need me. they found the peace without the presence of mine. isn't that gud? u knew u were betrayed by your own confidence, not by your friends...

music bored. english bored. exam bored most. the more nearer the SAT, the very worst of my soul was woken up. how to draw your inspiration from your life, from your friends and books.

over the week, i just wished to have more weekends to finish what i really need to learn, to cast my mind back to those i did study in tutor class, to boost my studying in a more sanguine way. then now, typing these words, i just want to do nothing. just want to speak E naturally, swimming everyday so as to magically find my body taller and taller, just want to read all the E books on the shelves. nope. desire became desperation.

the difference between adult and a child is the way each other reacting with failures. adult wants to win. then using any way to make the most of any ruse. a child doesn't. just try their best and then be happy with that. failure leads to another chance.

wish to lose weight immediately. haiz. new freaking hair style showed me the way to hell.